Day two of the coffee-fast and I’ve actually succeeded in staying off sugar today also.  Yesterday when I felt unwell I gorged on chocolate and biscuits but that’s to be expected when you’re under the weather.

I still don’t feel 100% myself, but at least the headache and the funny mental-fog are gone.  It’s incredible that two days off caffeine is having such an effect on my body.

I don’t want to write a dull and boring blog-post but I’m struggling to come up with anything interesting to fill up this one.  The truth is that I’m feeling worrisome and a bit down and out today.

Perhaps it was a residue of caffeine withdrawals or tiredness.  I have a tooth that’s recently become extra sensitive to hot/cold and it’s one I have a big filling in and of course now I’m convinced that it’s going the same way as the one last October when I had an abscess.  My car is starting to make a few funny noises, possibly for the first time ever in the seven years I have it which is making me a little nervous.  And then the general day-to-day worries are there and added on to it all, I can’t even eat any chocolate.

What kind of world is this?

I served people coffees and scones today and I watched them enjoying their treats and felt incredibly hard-done-by (even though two days ago that was me and by this weekend it could well be me also).  It’s so incredibly difficult to avoid sugar, wheat and dairy when they’re all around you and you’ve grown up with the ingrained belief-system that having something sweet is a treat, something to make you feel better.

What do you do to ‘feel better’ when you can’t have sugar?  What do you do to ‘treat’ yourself then?  As replacements I’ve decided to try dried mango (which is really sugar in disguise) and tahini and honey on toast (tahini is sesame seed paste, a bit like peanut or almond butter but bitter on its own).

That’s still wheat though.  And kind of sugar.  But at least today I haven’t actually had either of them.

The funny thing is that, while I’m contemplating how unfair and cold and unfriendly life is without my usual ‘sweet fixes’, there’s a high chance I’ll be back eating them all again by tomorrow, or at least the weekend.  Getting through one day off sugar is monumental for me.  Staying off it indefinitely is a likely as the sun shining everyday for a month in Ireland.  There’s always a chance, but it’s a pretty small one.

Ciao darlings!

Lizzie xxxx